奥さんは心得のある人でしたから、わざと私をそんな風に取り扱つて呉れたものとも思はれますし、又自分で公言する如く、實際私を鷹揚だと觀察してゐたのかも知れません。私のこせつき方は頭の中の現象で、それ程外へ出なかつたやうにも考へられますから、或は奥さんの方で胡魔化されてゐたのかも解りません。
translation
Okusan was a knowledgeable person, so I think she deliberately treated me that way. yeah. I don't know if the way I behaved was a phenomenon in my head and I didn't really go out of my way, or maybe it was the wife who was being disguised.
kanji (pronunciations & definitions)
| 奥: inner part (おく), interior, back (of a drawer, one’s throat, etc.), depths (e.g. of a forest), recesses (e.g. of a cave) | 心得: knowledge (こころえ), understanding, rules, regulations, guideline | 人: -ian (e.g. Italian) (じん), -ite (e.g. Tokyoite), -er (e.g. performer, etc.), person working with …, man | 私: I (わたし), me, I (あたくし), I (あたし), I (アタシ) |
| 取: taking (とり), taker, collecting, collector, remover | 呉: go (ご), soy beans soaked and mashed to a creamy paste (ingredient of tofu and soy milk), Wu (region in China, south of the lower Yangtze), Wu (kingdom in China during the Five Dynasties and Ten Kingdoms era; 902-937 CE), Southern Wu | 自分: myself (じぶん), yourself, oneself, himself, herself | 公言: declaration (こうげん), profession |
| 鷹揚: large-hearted (おうよう), large-hearted (おおよう), large-hearted (ようよう), generous, generous | 知: wisdom (ち), jnana (higher knowledge) | 方: direction (かた), way, person, lady, gentleman | 頭: counter for large animals (e.g. head of cattle) (とう), counter for insects in a collection, counter for helmets, masks, etc., head (あたま), head (かしら) |
| 現象: phenomenon (げんしょう) | 出: coming out (で), going out, outflow, efflux, rising (of the Sun or the Moon) | 考: thought (こう), report on one’s investigation into …, deceased father | 或: a certain … (ある), some … |