二人は別に行く所もなかつたので、龍岡町から池の端へ出て、上野の公園の中へ入りました。其時彼は例の事件について、突然向ふから口を切りました。前後の樣子を綜合して考へると、Ｋはそのために私をわざ／＼散歩に引つ張出したらしいのです。けれども彼の態度はまだ實際的の方面へ向つてちつとも進んでゐませんでした。彼は私に向つて、たゞ漠然と、何う思ふと云ふのです。何う思ふといふのは、さうした戀愛の淵に陷いつた彼を、何んな眼で私が眺めるかといふ質問なのです。一言でいふと、彼は現在の自分について、私の批判を求めたい樣なのです。其所に私は彼の平生と異なる點を確かに認める事が出來たと思ひました。度々繰り返すやうですが、彼の天性は他の思はくを憚かる程弱く出來上つてはゐなかつたのです。斯うと信じたら一人でどんどん進んで行く丈の度胸もあり勇氣もある男なのです。養家事件で其特色を強く胸の裏に彫り付けられた私が、是は樣子が違ふと明らかに意識したのは當然の結果なのです。
translation
The two had nowhere to go, so they left Tatsuoka-cho to the edge of the pond and entered a park in Ueno. At that time, he suddenly cut his lips on the incident. Combining the situation before and after, it seems that K purposely pulled me out for a walk. However, his attitude had not yet taken the slightest step toward the practical direction. He turns to me and asks vaguely what he thinks. What makes me think is the question, with what kind of eyes do I look at him who has fallen into the abyss of such love? In short, he seems to want my criticism of his current self. I think I was able to recognize the difference in him from his normal life. As I often repeat, his nature was not weak enough to frighten others. He is a man who has the guts and the courage to keep moving forward on his own if he believes that. It was a natural result that I was clearly aware that this was different from the fact that the characteristics of the adoptive family were strongly engraved on the back of my heart.
kanji (pronunciations & definitions)
| 二人: two persons (ににん), two persons (ふたり), two people, two people, pair | 別: distinction (べち), distinction (べつ), difference, difference, discrimination | 行: line (of text) (ぎょう), row, verse, carya (austerities), samskara (formations) | 所: place (とこ), place (ところ), spot, spot, scene |
| 端: near (そく), near (そば), near (はた), close, close | 出: coming out (で), going out, outflow, efflux, rising (of the Sun or the Moon) | 上野: Kōzuke (former province located in present-day Gunma Prefecture) (こうずけ) | 公園: (public) park (こうえん) |
| 入: entering (いり), setting (of the Sun), containing, content, audience | 例: example (れい), instance, illustration, case, precedent | 事件: event (じけん), affair, incident, case, plot | 突然: abrupt (とつぜん), sudden, unexpected |
| 切: eager (せつ), earnest, ardent, kind, keen | 前後: front and rear (ぜんご), front and back, before and behind, back and forth, before and after | 綜合: synthesis (そうごう), combination, integration, putting together, synthesis | 考: thought (こう), report on one’s investigation into …, deceased father |
| 私: I (わたし), me, I (あたくし), I (あたし), I (アタシ) | 散歩: walk (さんぽ), stroll | 引: -off (price reduction) (びき), discount, -coated, -plated | 張出: overhang (はりだし), poster, placard, notice, extra third or fourth wrestler of certain rank |
| 態度: attitude (たいど), manner, behaviour, demeanour, bearing | 方面: direction (ほうめん), district, area, field (e.g. of study), sphere | 漠然: vague (ばくぜん), obscure, indistinct, hazy, ambiguous | 何: what (なに), what (ナニ), you-know-what, you-know-what, that thing |
| 眼: eye (め), eyeball, eyesight, sight, vision | 質問: question (しつもん), inquiry, enquiry | 一言: single word (いちげん), single word (いちごん), single word (ひとこと), a few words, a few words | 現在: the present (げんざい), present time, now, as of, present tense |
| 批判: criticism (ひはん), judgement, judgment, comment | 其所: there (place relatively near listener) (そこ), there (place just mentioned), that place, then (of some incident just spoken of), that (of point just raised) | 平生: usual (へいぜい), ordinary | 異: difference (of opinion) (い), strange, odd, unusual, different |
| 事: thing (こと), thing (こん), matter, matter, incident | 度々: often (たびたび), again and again, over and over again, repeatedly, frequently | 返: number of times (へん), reply, answer | 天性: nature (てんせい), natural constitution, innate disposition |
| 信: honesty (しん), sincerity, fidelity, trust, reliance | 一人: one person (いちにん), one person (ひとり), being alone, being alone, being by oneself | 丈: only (だけ), just, merely, simply, no more than | 度胸: courage (どきょう), bravery, pluck, nerve, grit |
| 養家: adoptive family (ようか) | 事件: event (じけん), affair, incident, case, plot | 事件: event (じけん), affair, incident, case, plot | 特色: characteristic (とくしょく), feature, idiosyncrasy, personal colour, spot color |
| 胸: chest (むな), chest (むね), breast, breast, breasts | 裏: inside (うち), within, while (e.g. one is young), during, within (e.g. a day) | 彫: carving (えり), carving (ほり), engraving, engraving, chiselled features | 付: furnished with (つき), furnished with (づき), furnished with (ツキ), including, including |
| 明: vidya (wisdom) (みょう), mantra, the coming (July 4, etc.), brightness (めい), discernment | 意識: consciousness (いしき), becoming aware (of), awareness, sense, mano-vijnana (mental consciousness, cognizer of sensory information) | 結果: result (けっか), consequence, outcome, effect, as a result of … |