私は小石川へ引き移つてからも、當分此緊張した氣分に寛ぎを與へる事が出來ませんでした。私は自分で自分が恥づかしい程、きよと／＼周圍を見廻してゐました。不思議にもよく働らくのは頭と眼だけで、口の方はそれと反對に、段々動かなくなつて來ました。私は家のものゝ樣子を猫のやうによく觀察しながら、黙つて机の前に坐つてゐました。時々は彼等に對して氣の毒だと思ふ程、私は油斷のない注意を彼等の上に注いでゐたのです。おれは物を偸まない巾着切見たやうなものだ、私は斯う考へて、自分が厭になる事さへあつたのです。
translation
Even after I moved to Koishikawa, I was still unable to relax my tense mood. I was so embarrassed that I looked around my surroundings. Strangely enough, only the head and eyes worked well, and the mouth, on the contrary, gradually stopped working. Like a cat, I sat silently at my desk, observing the state of the house. Sometimes I paid so much attention to them that I felt sorry for them. I'm like a thief who doesn't give up on things.
kanji (pronunciations & definitions)
| 私: I (わたし), me, I (あたくし), I (あたし), I (アタシ) | 小石: pebble (こいし), small stone | 川: river (かわ), river (がわ), stream, stream, River | 石川: Ishikawa (prefecture) (いしかわ) |
| 緊張: tension (きんちょう), strain, nervousness, stress, tensions (between countries, groups, etc.) | 寛: lenient (かん), gentle, relaxed (ゆた) | 事: thing (こと), thing (こん), matter, matter, incident | 自分: myself (じぶん), yourself, oneself, himself, herself |
| 程: extent (ほど), degree, measure, limit, bounds | 不思議: wonderful (ふしぎ), marvelous, strange, incredible, amazing | 頭: counter for large animals (e.g. head of cattle) (とう), counter for insects in a collection, counter for helmets, masks, etc., head (あたま), head (かしら) | 眼: eye (め), eyeball, eyesight, sight, vision |
| 方: direction (かた), way, person, lady, gentleman | 段々: notches (ぎざぎざ), notches (ギザギザ), serration, serration, indentation | 動: motion (どう) | 家: house (いえ), residence, dwelling, family, household |
| 黙: silence (しじま), stillness, quietness | 机: desk (つき), desk (つくえ) | 前: point (さき), tip, end, nozzle, head (of a line) | 時々: sometimes (ときどき), occasionally, at times, from time to time, now and then |
| 對: versus (たい), against, vs., v., to (e.g. score of 4 to 2, ratio of 3 to 1, vote of 320 to 180) | 氣: spirit (き), mind, heart, nature, disposition | 毒: poison (どく), toxicant, harm, evil influence, ill will | 注意: attention (ちゅうい), notice, heed, care, caution |
| 注: annotation (ちゅう), explanatory note, comment | 物: thing (もの), thing (もん), thing (モノ), object, object | 巾着: drawstring purse (きんちゃく), money pouch, pouch of fried tofu stuffed with var. ingredients, used in oden, unlicensed prostitute (Edo period) | 巾着切: pickpocket (きんちゃくきり) |
| 考: thought (こう), report on one’s investigation into …, deceased father | 厭: disliking (いや), disliking (や), disliking (イヤ), not wanting, not wanting |