Kokoro, by Natsume Soseki (paragraph #679)

「左右かね。私は病氣になる位なら、死病に罹りたいと思つてる」

translation

“Left or right.

kanji (pronunciations & definitions)
左右: left and right (さう), left and right (さゆう), left and right (そう), right and left, right and left : I (わたし), me, I (あたくし), I (あたし), I (アタシ) 病氣: illness (usu. excluding minor ailments, e.g. common cold) (びょうき), disease, sickness, bad habit, bad behaviour : throne (くらい), crown, (nobleman’s) seat, government position, court rank

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