みはるかも知れませんが、何時も私の心を握り締めに來るその不可思議な恐ろしい力は、私の活動をあらゆる方面で食ひ留めながら、死の道丈を自由に私のために開けて置くのです。動かずにゐれば兎も角も、少しでも動く以上は、其道を歩いて進まなければ私には進みやうがなくなつたのです。
translation
It may not seem like much, but that mysterious and terrifying power that always grips my heart is holding back my activities in every direction, while freely opening the path of death to me. is. If I didn't move, neither the rabbit nor the horn would move.
kanji (pronunciations & definitions)
| 知: wisdom (ち), jnana (higher knowledge) | 何時: when (いつ), at what time, how soon, normal times, ordinary days | 私: I (わたし), me, I (あたくし), I (あたし), I (アタシ) | 心: mind (こころ), heart, spirit, the meaning of a phrase (riddle, etc.), heart (しん) |
| 恐: frightening (こわ), terrifying, yours sincerely (かしく), yours sincerely (かしこ), respectfully yours | 力: force (ちから), strength, might, vigour, vigor | 活動: activity (of a person, organization, animal, volcano, etc.) (かつどう), action, movie (esp. during the silent movie period) | 方面: direction (ほうめん), district, area, field (e.g. of study), sphere |
| 留: ruble (Russian currency) (ルーブリ), ruble (Russian currency) (ルーブル), rouble, rouble, stationary point (りゅう) | 死: death (し), death (ﾀﾋ), decease, decease, (an) out | 自由: freedom (じゆう), liberty | 動: motion (どう) |
| 角: angle (かく), square, cube, bishop, third degree (of the Japanese and Chinese pentatonic scale) | 少: small (しょう), little, few | 以上: not less than … (いじょう), … and over, … and above, … and upwards, … or more | 歩: pawn (ふ), step (ほ), stride, counter for steps, walking (あゆみ) |