私が歸つた時は、Ｋの枕元にもう線香が立てられてゐました。室へ這入るとすぐ佛臭い烟で鼻を撲たれた私は、其烟の中に坐つてゐる女二人を認めました。私が御孃さんの顏を見たのは、昨夜來此時が始めてゞした。御孃さんは泣いてゐました。奥さんも眼を赤くしてゐました。事件が起つてからそれ迄泣く事を忘れてゐた私は、其時漸やく悲しい氣分に誘はれる事が出來たのです。私の胸はその悲しさのために、何の位寛ろいだか知れません。苦痛と恐怖でぐいと握り締められた私の心に、一滴の潤を與へてくれたものは、其時の悲しさでした。
translation
When I returned, incense was already burning by K's bedside. As soon as I entered the room, my nose was smacked with faint smoke, and I saw two women sitting in the smoke. This was the first time since last night that I had seen the daughter's face. The daughter was crying. Okusan's eyes were also red. I had forgotten how to cry after the incident, but I was finally able to be lured into a sad mood. I don't know how much my heart has relaxed because of that sadness. It was the sadness that brought a drop of moisture to my heart, which had been gripped tightly by pain and fear.
kanji (pronunciations & definitions)
| 私: I (わたし), me, I (あたくし), I (あたし), I (アタシ) | 時: time (とき), hour, moment, occasion, case | Ｋ: K (ケイ), K (ケー), k, k, kilo- | 枕元: bedside (まくらもと), near one’s pillow |
| 室: room (しつ), wife (of someone of high rank), scabbard, Chinese “Encampment” constellation (one of the 28 mansions), greenhouse (むろ) | 烟: smoke (けぶ), smoke (けぶり), smoke (けむ), smoke (けむり), fumes | 鼻: nose (はな) | 中: inside (なか), interior, among, within, middle |
| 顏: face (かお), face (がん), visage, visage, look | 見: looking (み), viewing, (please) try (to), view (of life, etc.) (けん), outlook | 昨夜: evening (さくや), evening (ゆうべ), evening (ゆんべ), last night, last night | 奥: inner part (おく), interior, back (of a drawer, one’s throat, etc.), depths (e.g. of a forest), recesses (e.g. of a cave) |
| 赤: red (あか), crimson, scarlet, red-containing colour (e.g. brown, pink, orange), Red (i.e. communist) | 事件: event (じけん), affair, incident, case, plot | 起: source (おこり), origin, cause, beginning, genesis | 事: thing (こと), thing (こん), matter, matter, incident |
| 胸: chest (むな), chest (むね), breast, breast, breasts | 何: what (なに), what (ナニ), you-know-what, you-know-what, that thing | 知: wisdom (ち), jnana (higher knowledge) | 苦痛: pain (くつう), agony, suffering, distress, torment |
| 心: mind (こころ), heart, spirit, the meaning of a phrase (riddle, etc.), heart (しん) | 一滴: one drop (of fluid) (いってき), one drop (of fluid) (ひとしずく) |