「私は突然Ｋの頭を抱えるやうに兩手で少し持ち上げました。私はＫの死顏が一目見たかつたのです。然し俯伏になつてゐる彼の顏を、斯うして下から覗き込んだ時、私はすぐ其手を放してしまひました。慄とした許ではないのです。彼の頭が非常に重たく感ぜられたのです。私は上から今觸つた冷たい耳と、平生に變らない五分刈の濃い髪の毛を少時眺めてゐました。私は少しも泣く氣にはなれませんでした。私はたゞ恐ろしかつたのです。さうして其恐ろしさは、眼の前の光景が官能を刺戟して起る單調な恐ろしさ許ではありません。私は忽然と冷たくなつた此友達によつて暗示された運命の恐ろしさを深く感じたのです。
translation
"I suddenly lifted K's head a little with both hands. I wanted to see K's dead face at first sight. I let go of his hand as soon as I got into it.I couldn't help but feel that his head was very heavy.I just touched his cold ear from above and For a moment, I gazed at her thick, half-cropped hair, which never changed.I couldn't bring myself to cry at all. It was not the mere dread that the scene in front of me stimulated my sensuality, but the terror of the destiny implied by this friend who had suddenly turned cold.
kanji (pronunciations & definitions)
| 私: I (わたし), me, I (あたくし), I (あたし), I (アタシ) | 突然: abrupt (とつぜん), sudden, unexpected | Ｋ: K (ケイ), K (ケー), k, k, kilo- | 頭: counter for large animals (e.g. head of cattle) (とう), counter for insects in a collection, counter for helmets, masks, etc., head (あたま), head (かしら) |
| 持: draw (in go, poetry contest, etc.) (じ), tie | 上: above (うえ), over, up, top, summit | Ｋ: K (ケイ), K (ケー), k, k, kilo- | 一目: glance (ひとめ), look, glimpse, complete view, bird’s-eye view |
| 目見: look (まみ), one’s eyes | 然: -like (ぜん), so (さ), like that, in that way, like that (しか) | 俯伏: prostration (ふふく) | 彼: that (あ), that (あれ), that (アレ), that thing, that thing |
| 下: below (した), down, under, younger (e.g. daughter), bottom | 許: only (ばかり), only (ばっかり), merely, merely, nothing but | 非常: emergency (ひじょう), extreme, great, extraordinary, remarkable | 重: chief (おも), main, principal, important, main secondary or supporting role (in kyogen) |
| 冷: refrigerator (れい), cold, cool, cold sake, cold water (ひや) | 耳: ear (みみ), hearing, ear (for music, etc.), edge, crust | 平生: usual (へいぜい), ordinary | 變: strange (へん), odd, peculiar, weird, curious |
| 刈: cut (かり), clip, shear, reap, trim | 濃: dark (color) (こ), dark (color) (のう), concentrated, concentrated, thick | 髪: hair (on the head) (かみ), hair (on the head) (はつ), tresses, locks | 毛: hair (け), fur, wool, down, plumage |
| 氣: spirit (き), mind, heart, nature, disposition | 恐: frightening (こわ), terrifying, yours sincerely (かしく), yours sincerely (かしこ), respectfully yours | 眼: eye (め), eyeball, eyesight, sight, vision | 前: point (さき), tip, end, nozzle, head (of a line) |
| 官能: the senses (かんのう), sensuality, carnality | 刺戟: stimulus (しげき), stimulation, irritation (esp. of the body, e.g. skin, eyes), impetus, impulse | 起: source (おこり), origin, cause, beginning, genesis | 忽然: sudden (こつぜん), abrupt, unexpected |
| 暗示: hint (あんじ), suggestion | 運命: fate (うんめい), destiny, lot | 深: august (み), beautiful, growing late (ふけ), latening |