「私は相變らず學校へ出席してゐました。然し教壇に立つ人の講義が、遠くの方で聞こえるやうな心持がしました。勉強も其通りでした。眼の中へ這入る活字は心の底迄浸み渡らないうちに烟の如く消えて行くのです。私は其上無口になりました。それを二三の友達が誤解して、冥想に耽つてでもゐるかのやうに、他の友達に傳へました。私は此誤解を解かうとはしませんでした。都合の好い假面を人が貸して呉れたのを、却つて仕合せとして喜びました。それでも時々は氣が濟まなかつたのでせう、發作的に焦燥ぎ廻つて彼等を驚ろかした事もあります。
translation
"I was still attending school. However, I had the feeling that I could hear the lectures of the people who were teaching from far away. Before it penetrated to the bottom of my heart, it disappeared like smoke. I passed it on to another friend.I didn't try to clear up this misunderstanding.On the contrary, I was happy that someone was able to lend me a convenient mask. Because I didn't do well, I surprised them by being frustrated with the design.
kanji (pronunciations & definitions)
私: I (わたし), me, I (あたくし), I (あたし), I (アタシ) | 學校: school (がっこう) | 出席: attendance (しゅっせき), presence, appearance | 然: -like (ぜん), so (さ), like that, in that way, like that (しか) |
人: -ian (e.g. Italian) (じん), -ite (e.g. Tokyoite), -er (e.g. performer, etc.), person working with …, man | 講義: lecture (こうぎ) | 遠: distant (とお) | 方: direction (かた), way, person, lady, gentleman |
勉強: study (べんきょう), diligence, working hard, experience, lesson (for the future) | 眼: eye (め), eyeball, eyesight, sight, vision | 中: inside (なか), interior, among, within, middle | 活字: printing type (かつじ), movable type, printed text, print |
烟: smoke (けぶ), smoke (けぶり), smoke (けむ), smoke (けむり), fumes | 如: tathata (the ultimate nature of all things) (にょ), like (こと), like (ごと), like (もころ), similar to | 行: line (of text) (ぎょう), row, verse, carya (austerities), samskara (formations) | 無口: taciturn (むくち), reticent, quiet, silent, untalkative |
友達: friend (ともだち), companion | 誤解: misunderstanding (ごかい) | 冥想: meditation (with closed eyes) (めいそう), contemplation | 他: another place (ほか), some other place, somewhere else, outside, another (person or thing) |
解: solution (of an equation, inequality, etc.) (かい), root (e.g. of a polynomial), solution (to a given problem), answer, explanation | 都合: circumstances (つごう), condition, convenience, to arrange, to manage | 好: friendship (ぎ), friendship (よしび), friendship (よしみ), friendly relations, friendly relations | 貸: loan (かし), lending, hire, rental, lease |
仕合: match (しあい), game, bout, contest | 時々: sometimes (ときどき), occasionally, at times, from time to time, now and then | 氣: spirit (き), mind, heart, nature, disposition | 焦燥: impatience (しょうそう), irritation, frustration, fretfulness |
事: thing (こと), thing (こん), matter, matter, incident |