父は去年の暮倒れた時に私に向つて云つたと同じ言葉を又繰り返した。其時は果して口で云つた通りまあ大丈夫であつた。私は今度も或は左右なるかも知れないと思つた。然し醫者はたゞ用心が肝要だと注意する丈で、念を押しても判然した事を話して呉れなかつた。私は不安のために、出立の日が來てもついに東京へ立つ氣が起らなかつた。
translation
My father repeated the same words he had said to me when he passed away last year. At that time, everything was fine, just as he had said. I wondered if it might change again and again. However, the doctor simply warned that caution was essential, and even if I pressed him carefully, I could not say anything clear. Due to my anxiety, even when the day of departure came, I did not feel the urge to leave for Tokyo.
kanji (pronunciations & definitions)
| 父: father (あて), father (かそ), father (かぞ), father (しし), father (ちち) | 去年: last year (きょねん), last year (こぞ) | 時: time (とき), hour, moment, occasion, case | 私: I (わたし), me, I (あたくし), I (あたし), I (アタシ) |
| 言葉: language (けとば), language (ことば), dialect, dialect, word | 返: number of times (へん), reply, answer | 果: phala (attained state, result) (か), enlightenment (as the fruits of one’s Buddhist practice), fruit, counter for pieces of fruit, end (はたて) | 口: mouth (くち), opening, hole, gap, orifice |
| 大丈夫: safe (だいじょうぶ), safe (だいじょぶ), secure, secure, sound | 今度: this time (こんど), now, next time, another time, shortly | 或: a certain … (ある), some … | 左右: left and right (さう), left and right (さゆう), left and right (そう), right and left, right and left |
| 然: -like (ぜん), so (さ), like that, in that way, like that (しか) | 醫者: doctor (いしゃ), physician | 用心: care (ようじん), precaution, guarding, caution | 肝要: extremely important (かんよう), essential, vital, crucial |
| 丈: only (だけ), just, merely, simply, no more than | 念: sense (ねん), idea, thought, feeling, desire | 判然: clear (はんぜん), distinct, evident, definite | 事: thing (こと), thing (こん), matter, matter, incident |
| 呉: go (ご), soy beans soaked and mashed to a creamy paste (ingredient of tofu and soy milk), Wu (region in China, south of the lower Yangtze), Wu (kingdom in China during the Five Dynasties and Ten Kingdoms era; 902-937 CE), Southern Wu | 不安: anxiety (ふあん), uneasiness, worry, apprehension, fear | 出立: departure (しゅったつ) | 日: day (ひ), days, sun, sunshine, sunlight |
| 氣: spirit (き), mind, heart, nature, disposition | 起: source (おこり), origin, cause, beginning, genesis |